This word is feared like my disease was feared; they share something in common. They share bad press around the way their names are being used. I stand here to finally understand that Allah is great because he allowed me to see through something so disgusting, yet something so beautiful. It let me feel feelings I felt when I was simply just a kid. I no longer choose paths of others but create my own for my inner soul to first heal in order to battle my devils. Hindus believe that we are inner Gods within ourselves which I strongly agree with. We can battle anything we allow our minds to take on. May Allah bless you guys to a lifetime of health and more health.