Category Archives: Self-Improvement

Eat Me!

The food in my fridge sings to me. And I mean it really sings. I suspect this is another one of those situations only people with an eating disorder genuinely understand. I’ve talked about The Voices before. Maybe you think I’m completely mad. Or schizophrenic. I’m neither of those things. I just have an eating disorder. All day…




Vanquishing the Voices

I’m trying to picture a life free from disordered eating. What would it look like? How would I feel? What would be different? The voice of doubt always wants to knock me down, but I’m working hard to vanquish that voice, and bring forth positive messages to empower recovery. In this picture, my external life would…




Let’s Be Honest

“Let’s be honest here…” “In my honest opinion..” Honesty often must be conjured. Politicians put their hands on a book to conjure honesty. Your parents had to pull the honesty out of you when you were a child. Why does being honest feel like such an enormous weight? With honesty comes accountability. Accountability is the…




YOU CAN..!

BayArt - New Perspective on Life

I was unable to control my mind in the last few days. When I sat quiet and participated in the loud fun at the office, my mind was louder than bombs. I have my best friends around and I always had an option to tell them what is going on… but something stopped me from…




Looking forward

Today was a non-linear recovery day. You know – the old cha cha cha – a few steps forward, a few steps back. Recovery is a non-linear process. But that’s okay – I keep telling myself… I made some really excellent decisions today and made some really excellent progress. Then I made some really crap decisions and slipped…




Easter Egg Epiphanies

Today I ate Easter eggs. I didn’t enjoy them. And it isn’t Easter. There are bags and bags of leftover solid little eggs at work, and apparently we can help ourselves. I’m not sure my colleagues realise what that actually means to somebody with an eating disorder. The only thing stopping me eating the thousand or…




Her beauty in one flower

“I was not kidding when I told you that you were the most beautiful flower of the garden.” “I am not kidding when I tell you that you are the best thing in the world!” Imagine again … That beautiful garden. Everything is pure green, fresh grass, perfectly cut,… Beautiful waterfalls connected by lakes with…