Tag: Mental Health

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I have a body. As I said once before, it has served me faithfully all my years. I have been blessed with strong bones, good teeth, a great immune system and most excellent health. I am indeed extremely fortunate. I was not however, blessed with any confidence in this body. Nature, nurture and the environments in…




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My fatigue is back. It went away for a while. I didn’t miss it. Good riddance, I thought. Then it came back. For fuck’s sake, I thought… Now I can barely struggle out of bed to go to the bathroom. I still have to do all the things everyone else does – get dressed, go to work,…




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Let me begin by saying I’m a firm believer in all things recovery related, whether they be self-help groups, counseling, spiritual/religious practices, etc.  I owe what successes I have on many of them.  Coming up on 32 years sober, clean, and free from the institutionalized biases of the mental health system, I find myself reflecting…




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The greater the difficulty the more glory in surmounting it. Skillful pilots gain their reputation from storms and tempests. – Epictetus When I was a child, I had lots of ideas on what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wanted to be a teacher, a therapist, a fitness trainer, a writer and a movie director. Basically, I just wanted to…




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Self compassion is tricky to master, when the compassionate concepts I am encouraged to apply, were considered heinous insults throughout my formative years. You’re such a try-hard Goodness me – are you letting people see you try hard to be your best self? Don’t let people know the lengths you are prepared to go to for…




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Often I ask myself, “What does matter for me, really?” I also ask people, watch TED Talks, google the question, and so forth. The real answer, though, occurred to me first-handedly. In high school, I was a kind of person who always wore a blank-look mask most of the time. I preferred not to show…

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Recovery is a dream. A distant, foreign concept. A world of freedom I desperately want to live in, but struggle to believe will ever exist – for me. The idea of being free from food obsession is just utterly foreign – do I even deserve it? I’ve stumbled into a room full of happy people, all having the best of…




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We all have stress and fear. It’s part of the human experience. Some people handle it well or, if you’re like me, you can be a basket case sometimes. Everyone tells you to just “let it go” or “stop worrying”. Well, it’s easier said then done. What if I told you, there was a technique…




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I am entering into a phase of recovery (ie the beginning…) where I am doggedly determined to embark upon this road and make change. I am going to do it. Despite yesterday’s fuck-ups… The dialogue in my head is usually critical and unkind, mean and hateful – you idiot, can’t believe you did that, who do…




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Apr 23

Freedom

I have been challenged to write about freedom. To visualise what freedom from disordered eating and body image issues will look like. This is a big ask… Because I actually have no idea. No reference point. But in order to actually reach a destination, you have to know where it is. Or at least have…