Tag: PTSD

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Jul 17

knee-deep

This is not the surface of Mars. But I wish it was. A sci-fi Bradbury story and not my life. Scared and Scarred I am 6. Tender. Overly sensitive. Idealistic. In the living room watching TV (listening to my parents scream). My father is chasing my mother from the bedroom to the living room. She…

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I think many people spend their lives thinking about conditions, objects, individuals, ideas, and beliefs in black and white. I think many people spend their lives thinking about conditions, objects, individuals, ideas, and beliefs in black and white. Everything has a story behind it, just like every color can be seen as beautiful no matter…

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Strength and growth come only through continuous effort and struggle. – Napoleon Hill Two years ago, after being diagnosed with PTSD, I hit a rough patch in my life. I gave up on socializing, I’d spend days in bed and I avoided anything that had to do with accepting my past and the PTSD that came into the…

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Power is my mistress. I have worked too hard at her conquest to allow anyone to take her away from me. – Napoleon Power can mean so many different things to different people. To me, true power is measured by the choices we make when we’re facing our darkest trials in life. For a long time before this,…

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I spent my youth Away from Home. Wishing my friends Were sisters of my own. I didn’t like family. Dangerous love. Beat up and tortured, Push comes to shove. We lived in the country, Away from town. If there are no neighbors, Does abuse make a sound? My heart goes back To that scary place.…

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Background I was abused for 19 years by my father and others. Physically and emotionally. Then my dad died in ’92. For 6 more years, I would be physically and emotionally abused by my sister. At 25, I moved out, got married and I was free! From almost-daily emotional abuse. But. That day? That I…

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An excerpt: “My memories erupt like dead-gray trees out of the dark depths where feelings feed.  I am a stone at the bottom, seen through the swirls.  I want to rise, but am unmoved by the ceaseless currents of the past.  The only place that these things, water and relationships live are in my mind.…

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Originally written: 2016. What I’m about to share with you is deeply personal, fellow reader, so I ask you to read with caution. Any vulgar humor is only intended to ease the pressure of writing such thing and not directed at you, the reader. Unless you’re the intended recipient. Then take it personally. Today, I’ll be…

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Wings wide. Feathers flying. Riding high. Going hard. Beating the air with all my strength. I took this picture recently on our family vacation to Siesta Key in March. This is Turtle Beach near Sarasota, Florida. Bright, breezy morning with the dawn on my shoulders, sand between my toes, and big, blue ocean in my…

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Anxiety is not PTSD. Anxiety is the fear of something that has not yet occurred. PTSD is anxiety related to a traumatic event that triggered a fight or flight event that the brain creates to protect an individual. Anxiety is still a traumatic disorder different circumstances cause the fear and stress, and there are modes…