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Nov 11

Deep Rest

Sometimes, I wonder if there’s a point in trying to recover. I’ve been struggling for so long that somewhere along the way, I lost the part of myself that enjoyed being alive, happy and laughing. Twice a week, though, I get to walk into the room of a therapist, who, in a very genuine way,…

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I obsessively worry about the day we finally meet in person. Will you be as beautiful as in the perfectly lit photos that accentuate your flawless skin? Will you see the recognition in my eyes as I pretend to meet you for the first time? Will you see the hours I’ve spent studying you and…

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Maisou by Victoriadeyemi   Trust me by Victoriadeyemi Thank you BayArt for the support! Please visit https://victoriadeyemi.wordpress.com/2017/09/01/home-aug-2017/ for the prequel to this piece. And visit https://victoriadeyemi.wordpress.com/ for more posts like this one. I run away from people who ask me to trust them, how could I trust a person when I can’t really trust myself? I cannot definitively…

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“The future is scary but you can’t just run back to the past because it’s familiar. Yes it’s tempting, but it’s a mistake.” – Robin, Season 6, Episode 24 of How I Met Your Mother For the past two years, PTSD has shown me what it’s like to truly live with shame and want nothing…

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We humans have been living on Earth since millions of years. So many changes and events took place, which lead to the evolution of mankind. From the fire-inventing barbarians to so-called “civilised” and “intelligent” beings. Thinking is what has lead us here. Every person is constantly ‘thinking’. Every second of our lives we think, thoughts keep…

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I was stagnant. I was living the movie “ground hog day;” that is, I was going through the same story over and over. I was going in circles because I was on the fence. See, I said I accepted Jesus into my life but there was really no distinction between me and anyone else. I…

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It’s been a year now since I took that proverbial leap. I’ve walked many miles to avoid this way; however, every direction I turned, ultimately lead me to the same place. Keeping the faith isn’t easy. Truthfully, if it were up to me, I would fail. I know this because in the past I have…

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Nothing is more motivating than watching an infant learn. Instinctively, they conquer all obstacles to reach each development milestone. From the beginning, we are programmed to achieve our goals. Even so, somewhere along with the years, our determination disappears. Settling upon mediocrity, our dreams fade to an acceptance of a lesser reality. Stored under the dust…

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The years have changed us, Ten to be exact. At one time, we talked and laughed all night. We planned and dreamed of what our futures would bring. So bright it seemed,The future. The parties were fun, Mixed in with the studies, All nighters studying calculus, And differential equations. We were on top of the…

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For years, I lived hidden under a veil created by the standards of societal normalcy. To you, I had everything. To you, I was happy. To you, I had achieved what some may consider the American Dream. Every aspect of my life was perfectly orchestrated to convince not only you, but myself, that I was…