My dear friends do you think that life is full of darkness and hopelessness? I know this opening line to today’s blog isn’t one that brings joy to a lot of you however there is a point I’m trying to make. February is Black History Month most of us can’t talk about Black History Month without talking about the terrible subject of slavery. However rather than focus on the kind of treatment and punishment that was dealt. I tend to want to focus on the happiness they found in music. A whole generation of people displayed the faith to overcome their feelings and they did it best through song.
Without people going through great trials and tribulations we wouldn’t have Gospel music as it written and sang like today….
Romans 5:3-5King James Version (KJV)
3 And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;
4 And patience, experience; and experience, hope:
5 And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.
Now the reason I speak on this subject is because I too was a slave. A slave to sin. I was a slave to my feelings of discouragement and discontentment. As a boy I didn’t always get a hug by my parents. Often times I got the fist in the face before a hug. I would get hugged afterward but that really meant nothing to me… This kind of raising of children would continue for many , many years.. Even though talking about this kind of subject isn’t a pleasant one it is necessary because at it’s core is a true message of letting go…. When I signed the blood contract with God to live pure, and holy before him. The first year and half was beautiful… The reason why it was happy and beautiful was because I was too busy on the mountain top learning God’s Word rather than coming down from the mountain to care about what’s going on and happening to the people in the valley. However it is so important as Christians that we practice first before being thrown off the mountain top without warning in to the valley.
1 Peter 4:12-19King James Version (KJV)
12 Beloved, think it not strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened unto you:
13 But rejoice, inasmuch as ye are partakers of Christ’s sufferings; that, when his glory shall be revealed, ye may be glad also with exceeding joy.
14 If ye be reproached for the name of Christ, happy are ye; for the spirit of glory and of God resteth upon you: on their part he is evil spoken of, but on your part he is glorified.
15 But let none of you suffer as a murderer, or as a thief, or as an evildoer, or as a busybody in other men’s matters.
16 Yet if any man suffer as a Christian, let him not be ashamed; but let him glorify God on this behalf.
17 For the time is come that judgment must begin at the house of God: and if it first begin at us, what shall the end be of them that obey not the gospel of God?
18 And if the righteous scarcely be saved, where shall the ungodly and the sinner appear?
19 Wherefore let them that suffer according to the will of God commit the keeping of their souls to him in well doing, as unto a faithful Creator.
After six months of torment, tears and much tribulation I received the information that it is best for me to return to school. After much prayer, everything started to line up with finances, housing and classes. However I was encouraged to be a constant companion to the word of God while I was in college. I received much wisdom and prayer from people that live close to God in this ministry….
In the latter part of December my kidney’s became full of fluid on constant basis. Rather than address the problem right away I let it linger and continued on, but that only lasted so long before the rest of my body began to create havoc within itself. After Christmas vacation I was too weak to return to school… However I knew that going back to school was divine instruction which was given to me… After taking some time off from school to access the damage to my kidneys I was still determined to return to school even though others in my family didn’t exactly share that thought. When I visited home for a short period of time just to save up some extra money and return to school, home wasn’t exactly how I left it the first time. Within two weeks my family members signed a court order that would remove me form the house if I read the Bible out loud or in general. I often read the Bible out loud to gather the information that I was studying. A month later I received two death threats One by hanging and one by knife this is all because I lived righteously before them and the light in me disturbed their rather evil spirits. I knew I was no longer dealing with people anymore. I knew I was dealing with the enemy one on one because whenever they spoke they cursed me out or brought up things from my past….
Job 1:6-10King James Version (KJV)
6 Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan came also among them.
7 And the Lord said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the Lord, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it.
8 And the Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil?
9 Then Satan answered the Lord, and said, Doth Job fear God for nought?
10 Hast not thou made an hedge about him, and about his house, and about all that he hath on every side? thou hast blessed the work of his hands, and his substance is increased in the land.
James 1:26-27King James Version (KJV)
26 If any man among you seem to be religious, and bridleth not his tongue, but deceiveth his own heart, this man’s religion is vain.
27 Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.
I knew that once I received the death threats and prison time I knew that it was time for me to leave…. I was in the lions den. At this time while all this was occurring to me, I couldn’t pray because of the court order. Most of the time I would force myself to study in the early morning hours when others were asleep. However I knew I couldn’t do it for an extended period of time. My body began to wear thin and wear out. Due to the fact that this took place my mind was affected. I always wondered when I will have the opportunity to share fellowship with Christ once again I had the opportunity to leave and my other family members ran me to safety. However because I had to deal with so much over the span of two months confusion, discouragement and anger began to mount… Today’s message is not about my enemies putting away their swords and threats. It’s about realizing that I must let go of my sword. It’s about not allowing myself to hear what I call ” Receiver Cancer.“ What is receiver cancer? This type of cancer happens when two or more people are involved. On one end you have the sender or the devil’s idiot. On the other end you have a child of God. A child of God would do well to get the telephone feature of caller ID. You have heard of these types of people that come on the telephone and tell you nothing but foul language, anger and gossip… The best way I deal with those type of people is tell them that “I can hang up the telephone just as quickly as picked up the phone.” Sometimes I don’t even take the time to say goodbye… I thought once I moved away from the Lions Den that it would be terrible because I was dealing with uncertain kidney issues.. When I began to rent my new home, I began to become encouraged through Gospel songs. As soon as I heard those songs, I was able to study no war no more because I found the answer when I learned to pray.