Have you been stuck in a rut with a situation that doesn’t seem to have a way out? Frustration, hopelessness and fear ensues. You pray and pray but nothing seems to work out or either, seems to be at a standstill. Or maybe you’ve been dwelling in sin and have no way out. You know it and you feel the guilt and you just don’t want to or can’t face God.
I would like to share Psalms 51 with you today. King David’s life was not always holy. He committed adultery and even sent the husband of the woman he committed adultery with to the forefront of battle for him to be killed! (What an a*s actually. Sheesh.) God then punishes him but also blesses him after.
In my words, sometimes God does inflict quick punishment to wake you up from falling deeper into sin. His punishments might be cruel yes, but humans can be real stubborn too.
For example, if you tell a very curious child not to touch an iron that is hot and that it will burn them very painfully, some might still want to touch it. Why? Curiosity I guess. So what can the parent/s do if a child refuses to listen? The child has to learn the consequences of touching the iron. Very painful consequences. The child would probably touch the iron when no one was looking. (This is what happened to my sister when she was a child. Up till today she doesn’t know why she just had to do that. I have the same tendencies too. Maybe it’s related to our ADHD/ADD issues?). Thanks to her curiosity and foolishness/stubbornness she will never touch an iron again.
(Hahaha, what an example to share)
Disclaimer: I am not saying that God is definitely punishing you if you are stuck in a situation.
Most times, God is trying to tell or teach you something when bad things happen in your life. If you’ve read some of my previous posts, you would know that I’ve been suffering from chronic dizziness and vertigo for over 3 years now that no doctor can seem to figure out. Medications and treatment options all exhausted. For myself, I definitely know that he is trying to pull me out of my sinful choices that I’ve been so stubbornly holding on to. I have no self-control let me tell you that. (Eating almost an entire bag of Cheetos for lactose-intolerant me brought upon nausea and difficulty breathing just the day before) *applauds loudly with hollering and pom poms*
So is God trying to tell you to focus on something else? On Him? On someone you’ve been overlooking? Or maybe your priorities haven’t been proper. You’re spending too much money on something, too much time etc, etc. Or if you can’t figure out anything that is related to you, maybe he is using you or your situation to help someone else. You never know.
I see and read stories and testimonies of children dying from cancer, of people dying and meeting God only for him to reveal to them that it’s not their time yet. I read a post yesterday from BeautyBeyondBones. Her mother suffered a stroke and in her experience, was dead for 45 minutes. In one of the early paragraph, she saw a pair of hands extended out to her. She knew, of course that it was God’s hands.
Now, that stirred up some feelings in me and brought tears to my eyes. Why? I was feeling suicidal. Hopeless about my condition. My situation, and I have been having doubts if God is even real. Or if he is real, does he care? Why would he let his child suffer for so long? So lonely.
But with the shared experience from her mother almost dying (she’s in recovery now and doing well from what I’ve read. Thank God.), she saved a soul that day. She saved me from killing myself, by sharing her near-death experience.
So whatever is happening to you today, big or small. Trust God. Trust his plans. Tell him about your sins. Your ways. Or confess something to him that you’ve been guilty about but probably pushing it aside or covering it up. Small sins can lead to bigger and deeper sins if you keep ignoring it. It happened to me.
God loves us. He is not a fierce and unreasonable father. Talk to him. Tell him. Ask him. His mercies are unending though it might not be the way we wish to receive it, but all things from him are good and good for people close to you. 🙂
Don’t give up. Keep praying. Hoping. One day, you’ll find peace with your situation.
1 [For the choirmaster Of David When the prophet Nathan had come to him because he had gone to Bathsheba] Have mercy on me, O God, in your faithful love, in your great tenderness wipe away my offences;
12 Give me back the joy of your salvation, sustain in me a generous spirit.
Be kind to one another,
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