God Saved my Life Today.

This has to be my most vulnerable, unexpected post yet.

I screwed up big time today and it could have cost me my life. In a few seconds, everything I’ve known could have been wiped away clean. In front of my father’s own eyes. The only reason I’m able to type this a half hour later is because of God. He granted me the courage to pull my car out of harm’s way, He granted the other driver the compassion to slow down so I could escape, He saved my life when I was inches away from death.

The entire way home, I was trembling physically and mentally. My brain raced through what my dad would say to me when I got home even though he was nowhere to be found on the freeway. Perhaps it was for the best I didn’t see him until I got home because I probably would have lost my cool. Perhaps it was for the best I didn’t see him until I got home because I realized something after ten minutes of panic.

God wanted me to move on. He didn’t want me to dwell on my fatal error. He didn’t want me to live in fear for the rest of my days. He saved my life so that I could get up on my feet and do something. That something is university. (Ironically, university was the very place I was practicing driving to today.)

Until today, I allowed myself to believe God was no longer watching over me. I was wrong. He’s been there all along silently pulling the strings behind the scenes, I was just too blind to notice.

Once I got home, I braced myself for the inevitable. It never came. My father never saw it unfold. And he never will see it unfold because I’ll never allow it to happen again. Lightning never strikes the same place twice, God expects me to have learned my lesson.

I’m not worthy of His grace. Not yet. I must prove it.

~Live boundless.

P.S. Please do let me know what you think in the comments below, I’m very shaken up and would love some words of encouragement. There’s nothing quite like this on my blog: https://confessionsofareborngirl.wordpress.com/ but I’d appreciate it if you stopped by anyway.

 

39 thoughts on “God Saved my Life Today.”

  1. Bless you. None of us were, are or ever will be ‘worthy of His grace’ so don’t try to earn it. It cannot be earned, but I am glad you are at least trying to be better and do better. Know that with God’s grace you are forgiven and you can make the positive changes you need to make, whatever they may be. God bless you. Stay positive. Thanks for sharing.

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  2. You are a loved and valued human being, never doubt that God or whatever you choose to call a higher power is with you every moment. Be gentle with yourself and do not judge your mishap too harshly. “When the student is ready the teacher appears”.Life is a gentle teacher. I think you have already learned valuable lessons from your experience. I also think you have the gifts of wisdom and compassion, but in order to be compassionate with others you must first be compassionate with yourself. Be at peace. All is well.

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  3. Wow, God has got you. I’ve been through the valley of silence myself, where it felt or still feels like God is quiet and no matter how much I ask and cry He won’t say anything back. But like you rightly said, He’s never left…He’s right there, watching over you and making sure that things work. So you didn’t die because His grace is never ending and because He’s not done with you. So hang in there and be confident in the fact that He has you and will never leave or forsake you, and if you ever need to talk, I’m always here…

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  4. I’m glad you’re ok! Everybody makes mistakes but they don’t make us unworthy of love. I’m glad you’re making the most out of this experience but try not to be too harsh on yourself.

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  5. Good that you are safe and sound. Even at hard times, God will always be there. Even though you may not feel it, there will be a clue or a help for you to overcome it. Live your life to the fullest. Always pray to God for safety, thank him for the daily blessings, and repent. Everything has a purpose, so be strong in every situation. Reflect and move on. I hope you are doing well right now, everything will be alright. I really admire compassionate people in every way, because it shows love and care for all things that comes in their way. Remember, always pray. I immediately read your post when I opened my wordpress account. God bless you and your family! 🙂

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  6. God’s grace is sufficient for you and you are definitely worthy cos you are precious in the sight of God. You do not need to try to earn grace…you are beautifully and wonderfully made and God most definitely has your back and will never leave you nor forsake you. Thank you for sharing your awesome post about God’s mercy and grace.

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  7. Always remember that nothing happens by accident but for a reason . God never allows us to walk alone. He forever gives us his grace and his mercy even when we feel unworthy because loves us as we are. He gives us forgiveness so that we pass that along to someone who may have wronged us. He was certainly watching over you today and just know that he has a destiny and a purpose so great for your life that he spared your beautiful life…. 🙂

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  8. What an amazing testimony, God given encounter, I love hearing how He is working in others lives, thank you for sharing. None of us deserves God’s grace, and that is what makes His Grace and Love so Divine, He gives so freely, to all of us. What a Blessed experience, again thank you for sharing 🙂 Have an amazing week basking in God’s Love for you, He loves you so much. God Bless

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  9. This was a wonderful post. I do not know if we deserve his grace or not, all I know is he is always there with us. At least I like to believe it that way. He is the one showing us the right path through our minds, heart or through others.
    Stay blessed.

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  10. God knew you still had a life to live. If not himself he certainly had guardian angels watching after you. Yes, do not dwell on what happened but learn from it and move on. I know in my life I have been quite blessed and never had such moments where life could end but I have had very difficult moments of grief and I know I got through them because the Lord with with me. At one time when I really needed comfort he sent my mom to me who had passed on that very year in 1996. She was with me and I made it through to a brighter day. Keep holding on to the hand of the Lord and you’ll be just fine. Blessing to you.

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  11. I’ve seen moments that truly make me gasp. How we ride the edge of this knife so carelessly is confounding! Someone once told me to look around me. Appreciate each other, the end can happen to any of us, at any time. This is a great thing to remember! When I remember to take advantage of the moment, I feel great! Of course, most of the time, I’m just like everybody else…

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  12. Poor you, what a nasty experience. All drivers have had moments like that though – I know I have. A lapse of concentration, another driver’s recklessness, bad weather can all lead to close-call situations. When you think about it, we’re driving around in death traps. But how exciting is it to get in a car and drive? Try not to think about it too much; it’s over, you’ve learned from it, nothing more to say. Thank God and your Guardian Angel – I keep mine very busy! Take care x

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  13. I also had a near death experience. I was out on the beach with some of my friends when we got caught in a riptide that was pulling us away from shore… I remember looking back toward the ocean and wondering if this is how it ends. I knew I wasn’t living the best I could and in that moment I hated myself for being such a failure. Now I know that all of my failings and faults were so that God’s grace can shine through me in a spectacular way. It was never about me being able to make it, but that through His grace and His strength, that I can. His very love on the cross showed me that, and not a day goes by that I need to remind myself of how awesome and wonderful He is 🙂 You don’t need to do anything hun 😀 just lean and trust on Jesus Christ, and let Him guide you!

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