May 9th I had to end the life of my littlest big love, Mamas, my 13 year old Min Pin, because it was time her suffering from kidney failure ended. That was ultimately the hardest decision I had to make. She held such an importance in my life and I honestly feel as though she was a spirit guide of mine who reincarnated into this life with me in the form of a small pup. When I was 14 she found her way to me after I prayed for someone to come into my life due to the depression I was experiencing and she came, literally knocking on my back door. She stayed until the day she took her last breath, it was hard….
Now it’s August 15th and the GREATEST love of my life, my Grandmother, will soon be transitioning. She is at the wise age of 90 and has loved a long and loving life. I love her more than anything in this world and letting go of her physicality is beyond difficult. She is a major part of my life and always have been. The only thing I can do is move through with honesty and rawness about my experiences. Below I have complied a list that is assisting me throughout this difficult time in my life:
- Hiking: Being out in nature does something significant for me. Walking without saying anything or crying freely is everything to me.
- Water: Being in or by water is like my spirit is experiencing an etheric massage; it soothes me.
- Loved ones: Being surrounded by people you love and vice-versa, is salient for walking through the depths of grief.
- Meditating: Calmness within the mind can have lasting and beneficial effects upon the mind and the soul; great for soul to soul communication.
- Honesty: Being able to be honest and open about how I feel allows me to see and think clearly.
Death is a natural part of life and it should NOT BE FEARED. It’s never easy but it is necessary and as I move through I intuitively know I’m undergoing a transformation, a spiritual transformation…. after all, death is a see ya later, not a goodbye.