Navigating Grief with Meditation

The morning after losing my beautiful daughter at 33 weeks pregnant, I sat in my hospital bed staring at the wall in front of me unsure of how this had become my reality. Watching my husband as he slept next to me, I knew that this was going to be a long road for us. Each month that followed seemed to posses new feelings that were unfamiliar and not easy to process. I fought hard with myself, with the emotional pain that surged through every cell in my body. It was only until almost a year after losing my baby that I finally realized I couldn’t live in the grief anymore and that it would no longer define me. I was determined to be defined by the women that found light in such a dark time.

I have always thought of myself as a spiritual person that connected with the energy of the universe and knew the power in meditation because I had used it before in my life. While grieving my daughter I found every excuse in the book not to meditate. Simply because shutting off my mind was somewhat unattainable. After suffering for that year in the dark, I knew I no longer could do it and started meditating as frequently as I could. The results I had were absolutely amazing. Coupled with yoga, I found that light inside of me again. The dark clouds that had weighed heavily over me parted and I felt more free then I had EVER felt in my life.

After meditating, the anger I had felt, the shame I had been experiencing and the overall pain from losing my daughter was starting to subside. Instead I felt hopeful. I was finally able to look at her beautiful pictures and smile, feeling so blessed that I was able to carry her for as long as I had and so honored to be her Mommy. I felt like I could do anything and the goal of helping others and touching their lives with my story became my priority.

There is something incredibly powerful sitting in silence, watching your breath and breathing deep into your soul. Feeling the weight lift off your body as you tap into the power of your true self. Your vibration effecting every cell in your body creating a natural high. What a wonderful place to be knowing you can take on the world.

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21 thoughts on “Navigating Grief with Meditation”

  1. Waah…. What a sad story, it was a hard time for you.. I kinda understand the pain of loosing a child or a loved one,as I lost my mum at age of 11 years.. N I grew a life of hate n bitterness bt I realized one thing to be happy n to fight bitterness I’ll ve to forgive myself n anyone who wronged me.. I found peace still fighting on. N your blogs ve helped me n shed light in my life… Thanks.. Big up dear friend… All the best

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    • I’m so sorry that you lost your Mother at such a young age I can’t imagine how hard that must have been for you. I am so glad you’ve been able to find find peace. Thank you friend, love and light to you!

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  2. very very brave of you lady….yes nothing is more sad then what you went by or maybe still going by…but seeking help by going deep inside is only way we can face the reality of outer world…..peace inside,happiness inside is only way we see the world……what we are in is how our world is outside….sending you blessings full of love,light,strength,compassion and sending you hugs(virtual) from this SOUL to the SOUL you carry…..be blessed.
    NAMASTE.

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  3. I’m so sorry for your loss. I too have found meditation to help with my negative thoughts and feelings. It’s something I want to do daily. That’s my goal. It helps with the depression I experience on a daily basis.

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    • Thank you for your comment I agree completely meditation helps in so many ways. I am so glad you have been able to find help with your depression through meditation. I think anything that gives you light in so much dark is such a positive thing 🙂

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  4. Brave to put the feelings into words. 36 years ago June 1st I went into early labor and had a stillborn little boy. I still remember it clearly. Unlike you I didn’t deal with my loss. I didn’t talk about it. I pretended it didn’t happen. In fact I didn’t deal with it until 16 years later in a very public place It look me like a ton of bricks. So stay with the pain as long as you need to in order to work through it. I did go on to have 4 wonderful daughters but i still miss my son and wish I had gotten a chance to know him. Love and light.

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    • Thank you so much for this and I appreciate all the advice given. I am so sorry for your loss and it touches me that despite the time that has passed you still feel so close to your son. I know that the pain never full goes away and I am prepared for that. Love and light friend.

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  5. I have lost two babies (two separate pregnancies) and two years ago, my adult son. It is only my youngest son who is in the physical realm with me. I, too, found healing from meditation, Spirituality and my knowledge of the Spirit World. I now try to teach others about the Spirit World to help heal from their grief. Thank you for this beautiful piece!

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    • Thank you so much for your comment. I’m so very sorry for your losses I can only imagine a fraction of that pain. Meditation is such an incredible tool. I would love to hear more about your knowledge of the spirit world is that what you primarily write about on your blog?

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  6. My heart ached for you as my sister lost her 18 year old son 12 years ago, and it’s a painful journey. By sharing how meditation helped with the loss of your baby girl, you are inspiring your readers as to the depth and value of meditation.

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  7. I lost twin girls 8 years ago when I was 26 1/2 weeks pregnant. I had a lot of mixed emotions about the whole ordeal and to this day, I haven’t fully dealt with it. I am glad you found a way to lessen your grief and pain.

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  8. I’m so sorry you lost your daughter. It’s incredible that you’ve found a way of managing your grief and finding some peace alongside it. I lost my partner 5 months ago and have been thinking about trying meditation but I’m very much in the curl up and hide from the world stage. This post has inspired me, I’m going to do it, thank you! Sending lots of love and strength x

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    • Thank you so much for your sweet words. I’m so sorry to hear about your partner. Grief is such a difficult thing and nothing can ever prepare you for it. I hope that you find peace with meditation it is such a powerful thing! Keep in touch I would love to hear how it goes. Sending love and strength back ❤️

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