We are so hard on ourselves, I just realised I constantly think I’ve not done enough, helped myself enough. Beating myself up for making silly mistakes that in all fairness do not constitute as real mistakes in life!
I have read over a few self help books that I began at the start of the year, and I’m amazed at how much I have actually incorporated these new ways into my days.
But I really thought I’d done none of these things! All this time I have been focusing on all the mistakes I’ve been seemingly be making these few months, putting on a few pounds, spending too much, staying out way past my bedtime!
But these totally counteract the fact that I’ve achieved so much this year. I’ve lost an amazing amount of weight so what’s a few pounds. I have consciously changed my perspective on finances, health. And rebuilt relationships with family in more ways than I ever thought could happen.
Practicing mindfulness in life is the only way we will see a change. And this is a big lesson to me today, all the little changes I’ve made have been smothered by the faults I’ve told myself I’ve made. To simply reread a book and on the first 5 pages be like “holy crap, I’ve done all this”
Don’t get me wrong I’ve a long way to go, but I’m so excited to keep going and keep building on these positive changes. I didn’t do it alone, I did it through this blog, family and friends, my profession is saving me every day. To find a profession that makes you jump out of bed every morning even when your unemployed is an amazing feeling. Having those mad late nights with friends with numerous bottles of wine have been a tonic, ok it left me in bed with horrible headaches but I don’t regret them for a minute!
I’m giving myself one big hug today and I’m not leaving one negative thought stop me from achieving what I want in life.
We all need to look back in order to see what is in front of us. These winter months are going to be tough, but we will pull through and there will be bright lights, the smell of Christmas trees, the sound of laughter, chocolate, and a beautiful new year which will allow us to achieve even more in life.