Carrying On: Life After A Loved One’s Suicide

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love. – Washington Irving Rest in peace, Nina. I hope you’re watching from above, knowing how much you’re … Read moreCarrying On: Life After A Loved One’s Suicide

A Life Less Ordinary

I haven’t been felt like writing for a while now. It’s definitely a type of therapy to get my thoughts out of my head, but it’s like I haven’t known what to say about my feelings and situation. I’ve been finding it hard to find the motivation to even the smallest of things like wash … Read moreA Life Less Ordinary

How Six Feet of Water Changed my Anxiety

Vacations with Tati In the first week of May I visited my closest friend Tati in Syracuse. When I’m with Tati we go on adventures and I have the opportunity to try new daring things I would otherwise pass up.  This May I went jogging in six feet of water for the first time. I … Read moreHow Six Feet of Water Changed my Anxiety

Letting My Heart Lead The Way

What happens when you follow your heart? Like, trust your gut and follow your heart? Sometimes our hearts can be lead in the wrong direction, but I guess you have follow your heart with facts in mind, with observations and sometimes make some distance between you and your situation, whether it’s mentally or physically. But … Read moreLetting My Heart Lead The Way

In a bubble.

I always write about my feelings. I think that my feelings are the best way to express myself as well as connect to others.  However, sometimes I don’t even know what’s going on inside of me. I try to keep everything in order – I try to understand why I feel how I feel and … Read moreIn a bubble.

Feed the Fire Within

I feel really restless right now, it’s hard to relax. I’ve always had a passion for creating art, pieces of work which express and entertain. But the desire for that had dulled slightly over time since I was in my early 20s. My passion was directed at finding a partner, a stable job and my … Read moreFeed the Fire Within

Don’t Worship False Heroes

I wanted to write about having false hope in people. These people may be very close to you, family, friends and you may have known them your whole life. You may depend on them in a lot of ways, to keep you motivated, on the straight and narrow, to offer advice and their point of … Read moreDon’t Worship False Heroes

Let Me Be

Just because I’m not an oracle of calmness doesn’t mean that I’m irrational. Just because I’m angry at you and your friends and your family doesn’t mean that I’m an unkind person. Honestly, I don’t express such anger unless provoked. Having all the people around you stand and judge me, say I’m unsuitable, say I’m … Read moreLet Me Be

Having a Real Love

I keep seeing these articles about having “almost love”. An “almost relationship”. Something that either wasn’t felt by both people in the relationship or a relationship that wasn’t allowed to develop fully in some way. That’s what I gather from these phrases. I didn’t have an “almost love or relationship” I had the full package. … Read moreHaving a Real Love