New Perspective on Life
So.. Bad week for me the last 7 or 8 days. Kids acting up, I’m sooo sleepy, depressed and just overall miserable. My dark cloud was definitely moving in and setting up house but then yesterday I got one of my online orders delivered to my desk and it instantly perked me up!! I can’t … Read more
I have learned a lot on my journey of self-awareness. It’s taken many days of battling with depression, grief, and shame with small breaks of crying, deep therapy, and breakthroughs. It’s been a difficult journey to get where I am right now, but I still have a lot of work to do. One of the … Read more
There was an old hemlock in the backyard of my present home. It leaned rather precariously and most of its lower branches were dead. The tip blight had been hard at work on this towering giant and like many Eastern Hemlock here in the eastern US, the tiniest organism infected the giant, slowly strangling its … Read more
I have been so lucky…the depression has been swept aside again (mostly). It’s a constant tug-a-war battle with the depression. There are good days, bad days, and mixed days. Heck, sometimes there are just days where I throw my hands up in the air and impatiently wait for a redo button to appear to try … Read more
I was browsing on Twitter last night, and I came across someone who just lost their mother in June. She was searching for a support group to help her cope with her loss. I offered her my support, but it really got me thinking about what it was like to grieve for the loss of … Read more
When my grandmother died I’d decided that life is too short to wait. I know, sounds cliché. But her death has reminded me of how much I loathe my routine, how much I despise this comfort zone I’ve gotten myself into. See, I thought if I waited, life would come find me. But I was … Read more
For the fourth time in my life, I find myself going through the intimate possessions of a family member. It is a stark reminder I should never keep in my possession, things I do not want my nearest and dearest to find. Lucky for me, I don’t have drawers full of sex toys, illicit drugs, … Read more
These past few months have been some the most emotionally charged moments of my life. One is never truly ready or prepared to lose a parent or loved one. As my Aunt Adrienne said to me just the other day, “It’s as if a light had gone out in the world”. Such a perfect explanation … Read more
I died when I was 98 years old. I wasn’t shocked I reached that age, as I didn’t really care what “age” was.
I almost died today.
