The Art of Grief

In under a year, I’ve lost two people in my life: my childhood friend and my childhood abuser. Both of them took their own lives. If you think that things are so bad right now that there’s simply no coming back from them, I’ll let you in on a little secret; there’s always one moment where … Read moreThe Art of Grief

Carrying On: Life After A Loved One’s Suicide

There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are the messengers of overwhelming grief, of deep contrition, and of unspeakable love. – Washington Irving Rest in peace, Nina. I hope you’re watching from above, knowing how much you’re … Read moreCarrying On: Life After A Loved One’s Suicide

A Life Less Ordinary

I haven’t been felt like writing for a while now. It’s definitely a type of therapy to get my thoughts out of my head, but it’s like I haven’t known what to say about my feelings and situation. I’ve been finding it hard to find the motivation to even the smallest of things like wash … Read moreA Life Less Ordinary

When my Depression Silences Me

The Cycle of Depressive Silence It’s been some time since I’ve seen symptoms of my depression. Recently, however, I couldn’t help but notice the old cycles of those symptoms reoccurring and reappearing. I’m sleeping for longer hours, isolating myself, feeling a great sense of irritation and hopelessness and lastly losing my sense of communication. Since … Read moreWhen my Depression Silences Me

Mirage

The dictionary defines a mirage as something illusionary — something unreal. When I was a kid, I was fascinated with movies and television shows because they were reassuring. You always knew who the heroes and villains were. When you grow up, you realize that life isn’t so black and white; people are seldom who they … Read moreMirage

Shopping kills dark clouds.

So.. Bad week for me the last 7 or 8 days. Kids acting up, I’m sooo sleepy, depressed and just overall miserable. My dark cloud was definitely moving in and setting up house but then yesterday I got one of my online orders delivered to my desk and it instantly perked me up!! I can’t … Read moreShopping kills dark clouds.

Everything I Never Told You

There are people who’ve been through extreme difficulties in their life that will probably tell you something like: “I’m saying this to you now because I know what it’s like. It’s really important that you catch yourself before you fall.” I’d say that it’s actually important that you let yourself fall. After I came to terms with my … Read moreEverything I Never Told You

Rebirth

Each year on January 1st, we look back at all the things we’ve gone through and survived, everything we’ve learned, and we think of ways to make the upcoming year even better than the one that came before. Looking back at 2017, here’s what I’ve learned. A bad day doesn’t equal a bad life. Bad … Read moreRebirth

What I’ve Learned in Three Years of Recovery

[Source: What I’ve Learned in Three Years of Recovery] Recovery, life; I have come to learn that living day to day ins’t about having control over everything, because we can’t. We can just let life happen, and only then can we truly move forward and start to see change. Just remember that with every new change, … Read moreWhat I’ve Learned in Three Years of Recovery

Acceptance

Nathaniel Branden once said: “The first step toward change is awareness. The second step is acceptance.” What really, really started to derail me was my own mind after my traumatic experience about a month ago. My mind became the ultimate prison, and that’s the hardest prison to break free from. I’ve put off writing this … Read moreAcceptance