Retirement is something we have ambiguous feelings about: it’s what we look forward to because it will mean we no longer have to go to work, but also we dread it because it’s an undeniable sign that we’re old. Even though retirement has a lot of wonderful things in store for us, the way we … Read more
At first it is as if I am underwater. Everything is muffled and I feel as if I am wrapped in a thick blanket that is making me too hot. But I don’t want to unwrap that blanket for fear of what is lurking outside, ready to lash out and sting. It is easier and … Read more
Fear can hold back many people. How many are afraid of public speaking, addressing a crowd can be petrifying to some. The medical world has created a whole chapter on this issue of fear and even created words that the classify as phobias. Some have created the terms Evangephobia or Gospelphobia as one who is … Read more
When my grandmother died I’d decided that life is too short to wait. I know, sounds cliché. But her death has reminded me of how much I loathe my routine, how much I despise this comfort zone I’ve gotten myself into. See, I thought if I waited, life would come find me. But I was … Read more
This is what recovery from an eating disorder feels like to me. I’m living in a swamp – full of mud and quicksand, snakes and leeches, dripping with potentially lethal pitfalls, occasionally sparsely populated with beautiful flowers, bouncing bunnies and exotic ferns. I’m led to an impossibly wide river of fetid black waters and on … Read more
My family and I just went on vacation to Florida. On our way back to KC, we decided to stop at Fantastic Caverns, near Springfield, MO. I took many photos (scroll to the end of the post) in the caves, beautiful colors and high contrast. I was pretty snap-happy. I was surprised that I could … Read more
Marrying Young. I’ve always heard people say “Don’t marry young. As you grow up you change and go separate ways.” I believe this now, although I don’t remember thinking it when I married after turning 18. I had a rough family life and when it went from bad to worse I clung onto this guy … Read more
When you truly get this, when this knowing hits home for you and you comprehend it 100% you are free! You are unplugged from the “matrix”, you are off the grid, you are outside the box…there was never any box to begin with.
You will sense that you are above the water when everyone else is drowning.
“There is no spoon”
Originally, this post was going to revolve around the story behind the following quote: “It’s okay to be afraid, but never fear.” But, as of yesterday, this quote applied to my life — yet again — in a very big way. I dropped my Finite Math course yesterday because there was no longer any chance … Read more
Stress is the bane of my existence. It ruins my mood, kills my self-esteem, cancels my sociability, and puts me in a vicious cycle. Meditation, as it seems, is the cure.