Author: artsyexplorer

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I’m not where I thought I’d be at this time in my life. When I envisaged the future I thought I’d be doing a job which was leading to an amazing career in the arts, living in my own flat or house and maybe even married, though I was never to sure about that one.…




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It’s fair to say that this week I have felt very alone in the vast wilderness of my mind. I haven’t been a friend to myself. I used harsh, cruel words in my thoughts about myself or my self talk. Some of the words I have used about my self have been dumb, weak, unlikeable,…




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It’s the start of July and here’s the lay of the land. Scarily, it’s over half way through the year and I’ve had so many amazing, life changing experiences. It feels like a lot of my 20s I was getting by and then I went though a severe illness and it changed me from the…




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I spent Father’s Day with my parents and my brother, his wife and their 2 year old twins. A muggy day, it was lovely to see how happy my brother was with his family. I sort of thought that he’d be a great dad, he has been a real help through my periods of illness…




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Yesterday I posted a video of me singing and playing the guitar on Instagram. Not particularly out of the ordinary, right? I posted it and I felt okay about my performance in it, wasn’t my best but I wanted to show that I was still trying to make progress. Then I got a notification of…




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It’s a funny thing, perceptions. The way we view ourselves and the way other people see us often don’t match. I’ve been finding out recently that contrary to how I’ve been feeling  most people seem to see me in a positive light. Here’s some of the things that friends, my boyfriend and colleagues have said…




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It’s funny how something so negative can turn into something with really positive results. At the start of the year I started a job which I had high hopes for. But then someone close to me was struck down by a mental illness and my happiness soon faded. It hit me hard as someone who…




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It’s funny how something so negative can turn into something with really positive results. At the start of the year I started a job which I had high hopes for. But then someone close to me was struck down by a mental illness and my happiness soon faded. It hit me hard as someone who…




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From last Saturday it’s been a game a of halves for me mood wise. Last Saturday I had a slow paced morning, having my usual fry up and a long bath. But I also felt pretty nervous as I had arranged a photo shoot with a student from a local college for that day. I…