Author: artsyexplorer

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When you know, you know. When you’ve put everything into your relationship and somehow suddenly it all goes spiraling out of control, you need to know that it is not down to you. When you have adapted and changed and taken on things which interest your partner to help them feel comfortable and  purposeful, you…

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A poem dedicated to my fave… It’s the last time. The very last time. No more ‘one more times’, this is the last time. It is not a ghost of our relationship, he is the ghost of the boy I loved. A shell of the beautiful boy who loved and cared for me so much.…

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I think it’s fair to say I have some issues about the way I look. I’m fully aware that I have many qualities which are positive. I’m imaginative, creative, adventurous, I’ve got a good sense of humour, I’m funny in a silly way, insightful, I’ve got good instincts, I try and be as open minded…

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This week I’ve realised and recognised some important things about myself. I have spent the week alone in our flat as my partner is on holiday visiting friends and family. At first when I left him at the bus station I felt sad and really anxious for a few different reasons. I worried about feeling…

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When it doesn’t feel good to be me it’s hard to see the brighter side of life. When I’m told that I’m passionate and creative by people who hardly know me but I doubt myself so much I think it’s a lie. When even though I know how much I feel and how much I…

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What is happiness? I keep fluctuating between feeling content and happy with the way my life is going and feeling worried, frustrated and anxious with things that are about basic comfort. In some ways I’m so happy with my life now, my independence living in my own flat, my new part time job in the…

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When sleep is the enemy you get to thinking. You start thinking about your life, how it was, how it is and how you want it to be. I’m feeling worried about my future, I’m worried that because of a career choice soon I won’t be earning enough money to keep living in my flat…

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  I’ve been struggling to write a blog post over the past few weeks. Mainly because so much has happened and life has felt so turbulent that my feelings have been all over the place. With that came the thought that if I was to write something it wouldn’t be a true representation of how…

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I’ve found this week such a struggle, like a real tough week. I’ve found it hard to even do basic things like brush my teeth or get dressed and that isn’t like me. I’ve had struggles with my sleep since I was a child, conditions have to be just so and now living with my…

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I was reading an article about having concealed depression, it’s not really a surprise to me that I have most of the signs of it because I’ve felt pretty wobbly lately. I have insomnia fairly often, I eat a lot more than I’d care to, I put on mask to the world a lot of…