What happens when you follow your heart? Like, trust your gut and follow your heart? Sometimes our hearts can be lead in the wrong direction, but I guess you have follow your heart with facts in mind, with observations and sometimes make some distance between you and your situation, whether it’s mentally or physically.
But why does my heart feel this way? My feelings are interspersed with facts, things which I have witnessed and seen for myself. When I look in those blue eyes the pupils are swollen like saucers and those eyes dance over my face. Hands pull me close and arms enclose me and I feel you smell my hair. It feels so good and so right and I know I’m risking my heart by meeting him again and again after a bad breakup, embracing him still, I need to do it because right now it feels amazing. A bright streak of colour and beauty in my life.
Life right now feels complicated and messy but enjoyable and interesting. I had a bit of a wobbly week anxiety wise, I’d start the work day anxious and it would continue all day long. This dull heaviness in the pit of my stomach. I decided to have a chat with my manager to tell her how I had been feeling. I couldn’t pin point where the anxiety was from, uncertainty most likely. Starting a new job is hard, wanting to fit in with the people there and wanting to learn and adapt at a good pace. I’ve seen friends get fired for not possessing these things I honestly want so badly to start my career in Marketing. I’d loved to have been further along by now but there’s still time.
I was relieved to hear that my manager thought I was doing really well and picking things up faster than the previous Marketing Assistants. My email campaigns were very impressive and I’m fitting in well. I was very pleased to hear this, like I said I really want to make a go of this.
So following my heart in my career and my romantic life has lead to here, feeling more content than I have for a while. I don’t know where my heart will lead me but it’s an exciting journey that’s for sure.